This is for you MAA!!

Okay,I know I'm not the only daughter who loves her mom like anything but really she does deserve a complete blog entry to herself( in fact she deserves everything she wishes for),not because she is my mom( though that is a good enough reason too) but because of the BEAUTIFUL person she is.Never in my whole life i've ever been subjected to any restrictions, never have my decisions been frowned upon, never did anyone govern the course of my life- all thanks to my mom!We share a bond which is so special that I feel grateful all the time.
She has this childish streak too in her-when we are together there takes place a role reversal of sorts,she becomes the child and irritates me playfully,hides in most awkward of places and scares me by showing up with a bang--too immature some would say but i think this is the most innocent expression of unconditional love I've ever witnessed.Though in the presence of other people she is usually her stern self but I don't mind even that because I understand her so well that the term generation-gap seems non-existent.
On my part I may say that I too have been very careful and alert not to hurt her even unknowingly.I guess thats the reason she invests blind faith in me.I just hope and pray to God that we continue in the same vein all along our lives and then i will be able to call my life worth it. Amen!

Just Thinking!!!

A moment, a beat, the blink of an eye can change everything around you. A decision can make or break your future. what is it that we want from life, where is it leading us to?? any idea?? These are some of the things that i have always wanted to find an answer to, but have failed to have found one.

Often when i am travelling alone, which lasts more than an hour, i am in the company of my solitude, i ponder as to what is it that we are running after, each day is a fight, a fight that begins even before the sun rises and continues after sunset. For millions on this planet life is merely a monotonous, mundane and never ending process of waking up, doing your daily chores, waiting for the public transport to arrive, hop onto the first one that arrives so that you can reach work on time, start your work, meet colleagues, bitch about them, sad that they have excelled in their respective areas of expertise, whereas you sit back and sulk rather than doing something about it, have lunch, sip coffee, head back home post work hours, reach your home and dine and go back to sleep.

This goes on like a never ending process, no meaning to life, loads of complications, ever so towering demands , aspirations and no end to misery.  All we do is complain that something or the other is not right, envy friends, family who are doing good for themselves. where is the happiness gone, why is it difficult to find happiness in small things, why is the desire for monetary satisfaction growing at an exponential rate, our ego is bigger than our age, we have zero tolerance level and no patience at all.

No amount of spiritual upliftment is coming to a rescue. We whine, cry, deceive people, plot, bitch around, and vent out our anger with the usage of venomous dialect to be at peace with oneself. Any amount of benevolent  deed is of little help.

Probably solitary confinement would be a solution to all of these satanic actions. Answer to one's inhumane wrong doings. But the question is, will it cleanse the soul?? Will it make us happy and emerge as supreme among all living species?? I do not know... 

my kiddo has grown up :)

this is about my kid bro gudu or rahul for family and soumya 2 his frns.

hes like my baby, am quiet protective , wen it cums to him. wudnt let nythn or nybdy hurt him in nyway, nd wud buy the world for happiness. well ther's nothn xtraordinary about loving ur sibling , coz such is a relationship between evry brother and sister in this world.

a few months back when i was in bangalore struggling to get through a company or another valuable offer for that matter, MPHASIS came my way,within a weeks time that i set my foot in bangalore.

i succeded to get thru to the final rounds i.e, the PI round.

the results wer supposed to be announced in a weeks time or so.

the results were despatched thru mails in an alphabetical order, but i thut dat i dinn get thru, nd i waz damn sad, nd harrowed as well after a noy fruitful year behind adorned wid dissatisfaction, nd heartbreak.

i called up home nd let my heart out nd cried out loud b4 ma parents over the phone. they too thought that i wud make it. (expectations can kill). i too knew i cud make it then.

then after cryin out loud in da darkness of my pg's terrace , my cell beeped, i had amsg to b read in my inbox.

i opened it, this is hw the msg der read........

" hey didi, i knew this company is not meant for you, some dum trash 1, i havnt heard of its name before, derz no points cryin over it. di plz donn cry and feel sad, we have to do it big for our mom and dad, u remember, this is wat you have been telling me to do always.

GOD is testing us in every possible way he can , nd that stupid fellow knows and if not wud hav got an idea that no matter what, these 2 kids of mine smille through all the worse times of their life. stupid fellow , has no idea, hw strong we are.

we have to do it for mom nd dad , just keep the faith, there are better , no, the best is in store for you. am sure. let's do it together for ma nd papa, for they have made sure we have the best in our lives :) take care. love u didi. urs gendu :)"

tears rolled out of my eyes , cudnt stop them actually. its then that i realised that my kiddo or gendu has grown up. my lil baby bro has grown up nd is supporting me and is giving an emotional upliftment. i have no words to xplain the feeling here.....

you know the very next day when i checked my mailbox, there waz a mail from MPHASIS , stating that i was selected by them :)

apology !!!!

kk, now i would like to apologise, for not having kept my promise of regularly updating my blogs. there are reasons y i dinn do so.

but then i donn want to enlist them. for the past few months i'v been travelling a lot. not for fun or adventure, but out of compulsion and so also travelling far nd away from home was the need of the hour.

hope u al understand :). thnku

missing ends meet !!!!

hello friends, am back after a llllooooonnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnngggggggg break from doing nothing to finally doing something productive i.e., back to blogging again. i promise i'll be a regular this time on. :) something more personal this time, would bare it all this time. so wait for all ma latest 1z, knocking and rocking (i hope ;) as well. ciao. shabba khair

song which is close to ma heart by AVRIL LAVIGNE

You're indecisive when it comes to making any plans
you're on the fence
you give me reasons
I never seem to understand,
they don't make sense
maybe ain't enough for my heart
we'll see, ain't off to a great start
baby, I want you to be mine,
you better hurry 'cause if I change my mind.
You will never know,what it means,
to love meand you will never know,
what these two lips taste like to kiss
you can just suppose to what my body feels like to hold
hope you can deal with,
all you will never knowI wanna know you,
what's hiding behind this wall
who you really are
I wanna meet you on the other side of this charade
wherever the cards may fall
I'm ready to give you my heart
yea I'm willing to show up for my part
baby, I want you to be mine,
you better hurry 'cause if I change my mind
You will never know,what it means,
to love meand you will never know,
what these two lips taste like to kiss
you can just suppose to what my body feels like to hold
hope you can deal with,
all you will never know about me,
what I see, what I believe in,
how I breathe, when I weep

inaugural speech of the new president of united states of america. BARACK OBAMA

My fellow citizens: I stand here today humbled by the task before us, grateful for the trust you have bestowed, mindful of the sacrifices borne by our ancestors.
I thank President Bush for his service to our nation...
... as well as the generosity and cooperation he has shown throughout this transition.
Forty-four Americans have now taken the presidential oath.
The words have been spoken during rising tides of prosperity and the still waters of peace. Yet, every so often the oath is taken amidst gathering clouds and raging storms. At these moments, America has carried on not simply because of the skill or vision of those in high office, but because We the People have remained faithful to the ideals of our forbearers, and true to our founding documents.
So it has been. So it must be with this generation of Americans.
That we are in the midst of crisis is now well understood. Our nation is at war against a far-reaching network of violence and hatred. Our economy is badly weakened, a consequence of greed and irresponsibility on the part of some but also our collective failure to make hard choices and prepare the nation for a new age.
Homes have been lost, jobs shed, businesses shuttered. Our health care is too costly, our schools fail too many, and each day brings further evidence that the ways we use energy strengthen our adversaries and threaten our planet.
These are the indicators of crisis, subject to data and statistics. Less measurable, but no less profound, is a sapping of confidence across our land; a nagging fear that America's decline is inevitable, that the next generation must lower its sights.
Today I say to you that the challenges we face are real, they are serious and they are many. They will not be met easily or in a short span of time. But know this America: They will be met.
On this day, we gather because we have chosen hope over fear, unity of purpose over conflict and discord.
On this day, we come to proclaim an end to the petty grievances and false promises, the recriminations and worn-out dogmas that for far too long have strangled our politics.
We remain a young nation, but in the words of Scripture, the time has come to set aside childish things. The time has come to reaffirm our enduring spirit; to choose our better history; to carry forward that precious gift, that noble idea, passed on from generation to generation: the God-given promise that all are equal, all are free, and all deserve a chance to pursue their full measure of happiness.

In reaffirming the greatness of our nation, we understand that greatness is never a given. It must be earned. Our journey has never been one of shortcuts or settling for less.
It has not been the path for the faint-hearted, for those who prefer leisure over work, or seek only the pleasures of riches and fame.
Rather, it has been the risk-takers, the doers, the makers of things -- some celebrated, but more often men and women obscure in their labor -- who have carried us up the long, rugged path towards prosperity and freedom.
For us, they packed up their few worldly possessions and traveled across oceans in search of a new life. For us, they toiled in sweatshops and settled the West, endured the lash of the whip and plowed the hard earth.
For us, they fought and died in places Concord and Gettysburg; Normandy and Khe Sahn.
Time and again these men and women struggled and sacrificed and worked till their hands were raw so that we might live a better life. They saw America as bigger than the sum of our individual ambitions; greater than all the differences of birth or wealth or faction.
This is the journey we continue today. We remain the most prosperous, powerful nation on Earth. Our workers are no less productive than when this crisis began. Our minds are no less inventive, our goods and services no less needed than they were last week or last month or last year. Our capacity remains undiminished. But our time of standing pat, of protecting narrow interests and putting off unpleasant decisions -- that time has surely passed.
Starting today, we must pick ourselves up, dust ourselves off, and begin again the work of remaking America.
For everywhere we look, there is work to be done.
The state of our economy calls for action: bold and swift. And we will act not only to create new jobs but to lay a new foundation for growth.
We will build the roads and bridges, the electric grids and digital lines that feed our commerce and bind us together.
We will restore science to its rightful place and wield technology's wonders to raise health care's quality...

... and lower its costs.
We will harness the sun and the winds and the soil to fuel our cars and run our factories. And we will transform our schools and colleges and universities to meet the demands of a new age.
All this we can do. All this we will do.
Now, there are some who question the scale of our ambitions, who suggest that our system cannot tolerate too many big plans. Their memories are short, for they have forgotten what this country has already done, what free men and women can achieve when imagination is joined to common purpose and necessity to courage.
What the cynics fail to understand is that the ground has shifted beneath them, that the stale political arguments that have consumed us for so long, no longer apply.
MR. The question we ask today is not whether our government is too big or too small, but whether it works, whether it helps families find jobs at a decent wage, care they can afford, a retirement that is dignified.
Where the answer is yes, we intend to move forward. Where the answer is no, programs will end.
And those of us who manage the public's knowledge will be held to account, to spend wisely, reform bad habits, and do our business in the light of day, because only then can we restore the vital trust between a people and their government.
Nor is the question before us whether the market is a force for good or ill. Its power to generate wealth and expand freedom is unmatched.
But this crisis has reminded us that without a watchful eye, the market can spin out of control. The nation cannot prosper long when it favors only the prosperous.
The success of our economy has always depended not just on the size of our gross domestic product, but on the reach of our prosperity; on the ability to extend opportunity to every willing heart -- not out of charity, but because it is the surest route to our common good.

As for our common defense, we reject as false the choice between our safety and our ideals.
Our founding fathers faced with perils that we can scarcely imagine, drafted a charter to assure the rule of law and the rights of man, a charter expanded by the blood of generations.
Those ideals still light the world, and we will not give them up for expedience's sake.
And so, to all other peoples and governments who are watching today, from the grandest capitals to the small village where my father was born: know that America is a friend of each nation and every man, woman and child who seeks a future of peace and dignity, and we are ready to lead once more.


Recall that earlier generations faced down fascism and communism not just with missiles and tanks, but with the sturdy alliances and enduring convictions.
They understood that our power alone cannot protect us, nor does it entitle us to do as we please. Instead, they knew that our power grows through its prudent use. Our security emanates from the justness of our cause; the force of our example; the tempering qualities of humility and restraint.
We are the keepers of this legacy, guided by these principles once more, we can meet those new threats that demand even greater effort, even greater cooperation and understanding between nations. We'll begin to responsibly leave Iraq to its people and forge a hard- earned peace in Afghanistan.
With old friends and former foes, we'll work tirelessly to lessen the nuclear threat and roll back the specter of a warming planet.
We will not apologize for our way of life nor will we waver in its defense.
And for those who seek to advance their aims by inducing terror and slaughtering innocents, we say to you now that, "Our spirit is stronger and cannot be broken. You cannot outlast us, and we will defeat you."

For we know that our patchwork heritage is a strength, not a weakness.
We are a nation of Christians and Muslims, Jews and Hindus, and nonbelievers. We are shaped by every language and culture, drawn from every end of this Earth.
And because we have tasted the bitter swill of civil war and segregation and emerged from that dark chapter stronger and more united, we cannot help but believe that the old hatreds shall someday pass; that the lines of tribe shall soon dissolve; that as the world grows smaller, our common humanity shall reveal itself; and that America must play its role in ushering in a new era of peace.
To the Muslim world, we seek a new way forward, based on mutual interest and mutual respect.
To those leaders around the globe who seek to sow conflict or blame their society's ills on the West, know that your people will judge you on what you can build, not what you destroy.
To those...
To those who cling to power through corruption and deceit and the silencing of dissent, know that you are on the wrong side of history, but that we will extend a hand if you are willing to unclench your fist.

To the people of poor nations, we pledge to work alongside you to make your farms flourish and let clean waters flow; to nourish starved bodies and feed hungry minds.
And to those nations like ours that enjoy relative plenty, we say we can no longer afford indifference to the suffering outside our borders, nor can we consume the world's resources without regard to effect. For the world has changed, and we must change with it.
As we consider the road that unfolds before us, we remember with humble gratitude those brave Americans who, at this very hour, patrol far-off deserts and distant mountains. They have something to tell us, just as the fallen heroes who lie in Arlington whisper through the ages.
We honor them not only because they are guardians of our liberty, but because they embody the spirit of service: a willingness to find meaning in something greater than themselves.
And yet, at this moment, a moment that will define a generation, it is precisely this spirit that must inhabit us all.
For as much as government can do and must do, it is ultimately the faith and determination of the American people upon which this nation relies.
It is the kindness to take in a stranger when the levees break; the selflessness of workers who would rather cut their hours than see a friend lose their job which sees us through our darkest hours.
It is the firefighter's courage to storm a stairway filled with smoke, but also a parent's willingness to nurture a child, that finally decides our fate.
Our challenges may be new, the instruments with which we meet them may be new, but those values upon which our success depends, honesty and hard work, courage and fair play, tolerance and curiosity, loyalty and patriotism -- these things are old.
These things are true. They have been the quiet force of progress throughout our history.
What is demanded then is a return to these truths. What is required of us now is a new era of responsibility -- a recognition, on the part of every American, that we have duties to ourselves, our nation and the world, duties that we do not grudgingly accept but rather seize gladly, firm in the knowledge that there is nothing so satisfying to the spirit, so defining of our character than giving our all to a difficult task.
This is the price and the promise of citizenship.
This is the source of our confidence: the knowledge that God calls on us to shape an uncertain destiny.
This is the meaning of our liberty and our creed, why men and women and children of every race and every faith can join in celebration across this magnificent mall. And why a man whose father less than 60 years ago might not have been served at a local restaurant can now stand before you to take a most sacred oath.
So let us mark this day in remembrance of who we are and how far we have traveled.
In the year of America's birth, in the coldest of months, a small band of patriots huddled by nine campfires on the shores of an icy river.
The capital was abandoned. The enemy was advancing. The snow was stained with blood.
At a moment when the outcome of our revolution was most in doubt, the father of our nation ordered these words be read to the people:
"Let it be told to the future world that in the depth of winter, when nothing but hope and virtue could survive, that the city and the country, alarmed at one common danger, came forth to meet it."
America, in the face of our common dangers, in this winter of our hardship, let us remember these timeless words; with hope and virtue, let us brave once more the icy currents, and endure what storms may come; let it be said by our children's children that when we were tested we refused to let this journey end, that we did not turn back nor did we falter; and with eyes fixed on the horizon and God's grace upon us, we carried forth that great gift of freedom and delivered it safely to future generations.
Thank you. God bless you.
And God bless the United States of America.